"I've heard it said that if one retains their humanity they aren't an abomination," he says, voice mild. "But according to every other definition of it, yes."
It's not a strong argument against the label at all, but a part of working with Mercy is her requirement to have mercy on himself as well as extend it to others. Both are challenging, but the former more so than the latter.
He studies the figure before him, finally settling on it being more likely a spirit than a demon. There had been no attack and there had been no promises. There's a cold curiosity there that whittles the book-length list of spirit names to a few, in his opinion, Knowledge and Wisdom chief among them. What he knows even less than the being's identity is if spirits feel any sort of loyalty to each other, and if one might find the loss of a Justice spirit to be a wrong that must be righted. There's something of very faint buzz in the air, dream reflecting the tension that he feels as he wonders as he should be bracing for a fight.
Anders crosses his arms a little defensively, though the wall behind him gets a glance. He's neglecting it, and there is some ephemeral reason he needs to keep building it.
"We joined peacefully with no lies or fake promises. Only misguided optimism. There's nothing in any books we could find about a spirit joining with someone rather than a demon joining."
The equivocation (if it can really be qualified as such) isn't what draws Atticus' attention, isn't what causes him to draw slightly closer to Anders through the dreamscape around them. It's the act itself of excising a thing from the soul, when all others have believed, forever, that it cannot be done. It's looking a death sentence in the eye and choosing instead to live--or at the very least, to die on one's own terms.
He waves a hand as though brushing the other man's justifications aside. He doesn't care. "How did you do it?" he presses. "How did you free yourself?"
He feels very distant in this moment, as if he's an object to study rather than a person. It's not an unfamiliar feeling. It's not a welcome feeling. But there is every chance they're in the territory of something far stronger than himself or Mercy and he does not care to risk angering a creature here. He wants to wake up again, after all.
"Binding him and opening a way back. A connection. It was complicated and I don't even remember much of it." It's half-true. He'd avoided knowing some aspects to give it a greater chance of success - what Justice didn't know about he couldn't prepare for - but he'd reviewed it after. He wanted it to be available in case others wound up in similar situations.
"Why? Do you know a mage in danger?" It's not likely, but it's a possibility.
He does, although what plagues Sina is not something so easily ensnared and ousted as a demon--a task which in and of itself was monumental in nature. The scars in the Fade surrounding Anders are testament enough to that.
It is a possibility, a potential way forward for her, but in her fragile condition, it’s doubtful the shard could survive the process. He dismisses it out of hand.
“This is the Fade. You are always in danger,” he tells Anders instead, his tone a little silky. But to leave the young man with suspicious dreams would only draw attention to himself, and he’s revealed enough of his hand for one night. Instead, he motions to the incomplete building behind Anders.
“Put your hand to your task again,” he suggests, his tone almost gentle. “I think you’ll find, upon a second attempt, that the work comes easier.” He shifts his fingers towards the crumbling bricks and thinks, strength.
The wall becomes all-important again, and Anders' attention is immediately drawn to it in spite of the words that almost sounded threatening. He has to build what's been broken, what he's broken and others have broken, in order to keep going. Where, he's not entirely sure. He's also not entirely sure it matters right now as he wanders back to his work.
This time when a stone is placed and he uses primal magic to join it to the surrounding stones, it stays. He stares at it in bleary surprise before reaching out and touching it, confirming what his eyes are telling him. Anders grabs another stone and adds it quickly, as if the stability might be a fleeting thing, and the second stays in place too. Some tension leaves his shoulders as he continues working. Actual progress is happening. This area of the Fade is no longer as dark and dim as it had been, and Mercy's faint glow is barely perceptible around her as more light comes in.
The Fade isn't pressing in on him for once, there are no Darkspawn currently howling... Dimly he recalls that there'd been someone with him a few moments ago, but it's a dream and anything aside the stone wall is already getting distant and murky.
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It's not a strong argument against the label at all, but a part of working with Mercy is her requirement to have mercy on himself as well as extend it to others. Both are challenging, but the former more so than the latter.
He studies the figure before him, finally settling on it being more likely a spirit than a demon. There had been no attack and there had been no promises. There's a cold curiosity there that whittles the book-length list of spirit names to a few, in his opinion, Knowledge and Wisdom chief among them. What he knows even less than the being's identity is if spirits feel any sort of loyalty to each other, and if one might find the loss of a Justice spirit to be a wrong that must be righted. There's something of very faint buzz in the air, dream reflecting the tension that he feels as he wonders as he should be bracing for a fight.
Anders crosses his arms a little defensively, though the wall behind him gets a glance. He's neglecting it, and there is some ephemeral reason he needs to keep building it.
"We joined peacefully with no lies or fake promises. Only misguided optimism. There's nothing in any books we could find about a spirit joining with someone rather than a demon joining."
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He waves a hand as though brushing the other man's justifications aside. He doesn't care. "How did you do it?" he presses. "How did you free yourself?"
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"Binding him and opening a way back. A connection. It was complicated and I don't even remember much of it." It's half-true. He'd avoided knowing some aspects to give it a greater chance of success - what Justice didn't know about he couldn't prepare for - but he'd reviewed it after. He wanted it to be available in case others wound up in similar situations.
"Why? Do you know a mage in danger?" It's not likely, but it's a possibility.
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He does, although what plagues Sina is not something so easily ensnared and ousted as a demon--a task which in and of itself was monumental in nature. The scars in the Fade surrounding Anders are testament enough to that.
It is a possibility, a potential way forward for her, but in her fragile condition, it’s doubtful the shard could survive the process. He dismisses it out of hand.
“This is the Fade. You are always in danger,” he tells Anders instead, his tone a little silky. But to leave the young man with suspicious dreams would only draw attention to himself, and he’s revealed enough of his hand for one night. Instead, he motions to the incomplete building behind Anders.
“Put your hand to your task again,” he suggests, his tone almost gentle. “I think you’ll find, upon a second attempt, that the work comes easier.” He shifts his fingers towards the crumbling bricks and thinks, strength.
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This time when a stone is placed and he uses primal magic to join it to the surrounding stones, it stays. He stares at it in bleary surprise before reaching out and touching it, confirming what his eyes are telling him. Anders grabs another stone and adds it quickly, as if the stability might be a fleeting thing, and the second stays in place too. Some tension leaves his shoulders as he continues working. Actual progress is happening. This area of the Fade is no longer as dark and dim as it had been, and Mercy's faint glow is barely perceptible around her as more light comes in.
The Fade isn't pressing in on him for once, there are no Darkspawn currently howling... Dimly he recalls that there'd been someone with him a few moments ago, but it's a dream and anything aside the stone wall is already getting distant and murky.