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Anders ([personal profile] justice_is_blond) wrote2016-01-15 11:45 am
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[personal profile] alankazam 2017-03-24 10:34 am (UTC)(link)
He listens, and that matters. Alan rarely speaks so much of himself in a breath. To find that Anders has heard, it's —

— The best he can offer, and no falsehood for it. Alan's head tips up to settle into the silence. A spider makes slow passes between the cross-poles, weaves itself a home within the corners.

"I can't outrun it." Neither of them can. The past owns a rapid pace, of late. "So maybe I need to let it find me."

Not be led to it, not like that again, a dog on a lead. No: Wear the skin of it, those places he's from, the truths he's felt. Let them see who he is, and let himself know it, too. If you hold any shape long enough, it starts to seem as though it's all that's there.

And he's been holding hidden for twelve years.

"Was it — is it better?"

Now that they've found Anders.
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[personal profile] alankazam 2017-03-29 08:49 pm (UTC)(link)
"You could have done good there, too,"

He points out, voice soft. A responsibility to help,

Anders has bared his throat here, Alan isn't unaware, wants instinctively to comfort — but it's a token sort of offering, because the decision that Anders speaks is familiar, almost nostalgic for its certainty.

Perhaps it shouldn't be, they always held themselves apart from the world below. But it was to a higher purpose. It was taking a stand, in its own way.

(It couldn't last.)

It's all... complex. He doesn't know what to make of it still, all these shifting little convictions, the way his feelings flit from one view to the next.

"We have to," He mulls, begins again. "We have to choose our responsibilities, I think. Have to commit to them. To each other."

"I just wonder at what we trade. Andraste gave her life —" Twice over. "— At times, I wonder if it was the only way."

A confession he's not aired elsewhere, and guilty for it.
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[personal profile] alankazam 2017-04-11 09:00 pm (UTC)(link)
"Thank you,"

He shifts, at last, to stand.

"I should," Think about all of this. "Should check on the soldier."

(A broken leg, that's what happens when you run on a slippery battlement. At least that's what happens to other people.)