...Now he's stressing Nate out and making it worse. He truly is awful at relationships. While he'd like nothing more to burrow against Nate as he tries to explain, Anders figures that would add injury to insult once he starts explaining.

Anders looks down. Time to fuck up, as usual.

"It's the Wardens' fault I've not served as much as you, and it's the Wardens' fault I had no option except Justice, but that's never going to matter. Only one thing I've ever done will ever matter. There's no undoing it, there's no changing anything, and I'll forever be That Anders, the liability."