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justice_is_blond) wrote2016-01-15 11:45 am
justice_is_blond) wrote2016-01-15 11:45 am
Inbox for Fade Rift
[Please leave a message after the beep that doesn't actually exist.]
Oh. I thought you might still be in Halamshiral. Erm...well, then, can you keep an eye on her when she gets back, then? I don't know if she'll need someone to talk to.
[And he thinks that it's probably not a good idea that he's around her for the moment, which he almost starts to say before he thinks better of it and tries again.]
I tried to tell her I liked her last night.
[And he thinks that it's probably not a good idea that he's around her for the moment, which he almost starts to say before he thinks better of it and tries again.]
I tried to tell her I liked her last night.
She didn't take it well? Tell me how it happened.
[There's no judgement, or at least there isn't any yet. He has some trust in Jamie.]
[There's no judgement, or at least there isn't any yet. He has some trust in Jamie.]
She didn't understand at first, I think. I'm not sure. It was a bit confusing. But then...she thought that I'd be upset because I might think she was resisting and she-
She told me to make it quick and merciful. Like I was going to pull her skirts up and have my way with her, even though I'd no intention of doing anything of the sort. What sort of men has she known that'd make her think I'd do something like that?
[He's angry - but not at her,only at the men who would treat her like that. But he's also upset, and confused, and worried for her, and maybe just a touch hurt that she'd think so little of him. It makes his voice thick with emotion, something he doesn't even try to hide from Anders, even if it runs the risk of making him upset too.]
She told me to make it quick and merciful. Like I was going to pull her skirts up and have my way with her, even though I'd no intention of doing anything of the sort. What sort of men has she known that'd make her think I'd do something like that?
[He's angry - but not at her,only at the men who would treat her like that. But he's also upset, and confused, and worried for her, and maybe just a touch hurt that she'd think so little of him. It makes his voice thick with emotion, something he doesn't even try to hide from Anders, even if it runs the risk of making him upset too.]
[He exhales heavily.]
I tried to explain that that wasn't... That she... I'll talk with her again. Be patient, Jamie, please. I know you'd not do that. But there are people who would, who wouldn't get in trouble for it, to elves and mages and she's both.
She likes you. She just doesn't get that she's the freedom to like you.
I tried to explain that that wasn't... That she... I'll talk with her again. Be patient, Jamie, please. I know you'd not do that. But there are people who would, who wouldn't get in trouble for it, to elves and mages and she's both.
She likes you. She just doesn't get that she's the freedom to like you.
Look, I know that. I know she's worried about what people will think and that they'll judge. And there's all these taboos and-and a whole lot of other stuff and I don't care about those. I told her as much. She said she liked me back, even.
But- she also said that she didn't think I'd hurt her any more than was necessary. Like she's expecting me to hurt her, even though I've told her until I was blue in the face that I'd not do that. What sort of relationship are we supposed to have if she's expecting something like that no matter what? All the patience in the world isn't going to change that.
But- she also said that she didn't think I'd hurt her any more than was necessary. Like she's expecting me to hurt her, even though I've told her until I was blue in the face that I'd not do that. What sort of relationship are we supposed to have if she's expecting something like that no matter what? All the patience in the world isn't going to change that.
I know. I'll speak with her again.
[He wants her happy. Scaring the good men off with her own fear won't help with that.]
It's hard to stop being afraid. But I can't expect eternal patience from you, and she can't either.
[He wants her happy. Scaring the good men off with her own fear won't help with that.]
It's hard to stop being afraid. But I can't expect eternal patience from you, and she can't either.
Aye, I know that too.
[His voice goes much quieter as he says it. Victoria had been afraid as well, although it'd been for different reasons. And in the end she'd left, even despite his trying to convince her to stay. There's only so long that he can try and do something like that again - and after that, he's wondering if maybe it's better he stops trying.]
That's why I'm asking you to keep an eye on her for now. Maybe it's better I stay away for a bit.
[His voice goes much quieter as he says it. Victoria had been afraid as well, although it'd been for different reasons. And in the end she'd left, even despite his trying to convince her to stay. There's only so long that he can try and do something like that again - and after that, he's wondering if maybe it's better he stops trying.]
That's why I'm asking you to keep an eye on her for now. Maybe it's better I stay away for a bit.
[He exhales.]
I can't say if it's better if you stay away or if you're nearby as a friend. That's something you have to decide for yourself. But I'll do everything I can for her. ...And for you, honestly. I feel like you'd be good for her.
I can't say if it's better if you stay away or if you're nearby as a friend. That's something you have to decide for yourself. But I'll do everything I can for her. ...And for you, honestly. I feel like you'd be good for her.
Last time I tried to stay nearby it didn't work out so well. But...och, I don't know. I've not got much choice for awhile, either way. There's a bunch of us that are being sent out to deal with some rifts.
Please stay safe, Jamie. You're a friend, whether or not you wind up seeing my, I mean, Kallian.
You can call her your daughter around me, you know.
[Family doesn't necessarily have to be blood. He figured that one out long ago, and there's a flicker of amusement in his voice, at least for a second or two.]
And I reckon so long as I make it through the boat journey the rifts'll be no problem. Don't worry, though. I'll be fine.
[Family doesn't necessarily have to be blood. He figured that one out long ago, and there's a flicker of amusement in his voice, at least for a second or two.]
And I reckon so long as I make it through the boat journey the rifts'll be no problem. Don't worry, though. I'll be fine.
Edited (icon) 2016-09-18 22:27 (UTC)
[He half-chuckles.]
I'm never sure. It's... complicated, the daughter thing.
[He doesn't want to be an anchor around her ankle. He wants to see her fly.]
Keep in touch, and let me know if something goes awry. I'm not certain of what hep I can be, but if I can find a way, I will.
I'm never sure. It's... complicated, the daughter thing.
[He doesn't want to be an anchor around her ankle. He wants to see her fly.]
Keep in touch, and let me know if something goes awry. I'm not certain of what hep I can be, but if I can find a way, I will.
Aye, those sorts of things generally are.
[It doesn't really bother him, though, and that comes through in his voice.]
If you've something for seasickness, I could maybe use a bit of that. If not, though, no worries. I'll let you know if something goes wrong, though.
[Pity that last part isn't going to turn out to be true, but it won't be for lack of trying.]
[It doesn't really bother him, though, and that comes through in his voice.]
If you've something for seasickness, I could maybe use a bit of that. If not, though, no worries. I'll let you know if something goes wrong, though.
[Pity that last part isn't going to turn out to be true, but it won't be for lack of trying.]
[Anders is always grateful when someone understands.]
Of course.
[He names a couple of common, easy-to-find herbs.]
Take a leaf of each, chew them together when the seasickness starts, and it should settle your stomach.
Of course.
[He names a couple of common, easy-to-find herbs.]
Take a leaf of each, chew them together when the seasickness starts, and it should settle your stomach.
Thanks.
[For his part, he's grateful for Anders being willing to listen to him - and for the herbs as well. That should hopefully keep things at bay if he does get seasick.]
I'll see what I can do. And I'll talk to you later on, then.
[For his part, he's grateful for Anders being willing to listen to him - and for the herbs as well. That should hopefully keep things at bay if he does get seasick.]
I'll see what I can do. And I'll talk to you later on, then.
...You're right.
[ Would she prefer to lose Alistair as a friend? No. Never. ]
Thank you, Anders. I'm sorry that I've been so...difficult.
[ Would she prefer to lose Alistair as a friend? No. Never. ]
Thank you, Anders. I'm sorry that I've been so...difficult.
You're welcome, Beleth, and you've not been difficult. I only hope I helped.
Nathaniel is now considered one of the leaders of the Wardens at Skyhold. There are meetings with Alistair and Teren, and considerations to be made regarding their relationship with the Inquisition, so Nathaniel takes a day or so to notice Anders' change in demeanor. Anders is quieter, almost prickly. Something is clearly bothering him, and so Nathaniel makes it a priority to un-bother him.
They're very nearly alone in the barracks when Nathaniel comes up behind Anders and wraps his arms around his waist.
"I love you."
They're very nearly alone in the barracks when Nathaniel comes up behind Anders and wraps his arms around his waist.
"I love you."
He relaxes a little in Nate's arms, a very rare time when those words and arms don't drive all the tension from him. The issue isn't Nate's fault, but Nate's a part of it so Anders finds it difficult to melt as usual.
All the same, he turns and embraces Nate in return.
"I love you too." A beat. "You're no longer busy, then?" There's more to the question than lies on the surface, another rarity. Nathaniel's the jealous one, generally, but now Anders is struggling with the vice.
All the same, he turns and embraces Nate in return.
"I love you too." A beat. "You're no longer busy, then?" There's more to the question than lies on the surface, another rarity. Nathaniel's the jealous one, generally, but now Anders is struggling with the vice.
He shrugs, moving his head to the side a little with the gesture, but only after the kiss. He likes the kiss.
"I don't... I... Mm." How does he even explain? Anders exhales. "Yes, but," another sigh, and then a little sullenly: "No."
He understands the reasons. Nothing is technically the matter. But his pride is wounded and he doesn't like that.
"I don't... I... Mm." How does he even explain? Anders exhales. "Yes, but," another sigh, and then a little sullenly: "No."
He understands the reasons. Nothing is technically the matter. But his pride is wounded and he doesn't like that.
The biggest problem is that he's seen how pleased Nate is to have the new responsibility, and how well he's responding to the position. If Anders says what's on his mind, he might taint the one good thing that's happened to Nathaniel in a very long time. He's caught between wanting to gripe and not wanting to hurt Nate and he doesn't like it.
"Nothing." A beat. "All right, yes, something, I just... It's complicated."
He's never not told Nate something before. He can't see this going that well, but he doesn't know what else to say and he can't wave his staff and magically fix his mood.
"Nothing." A beat. "All right, yes, something, I just... It's complicated."
He's never not told Nate something before. He can't see this going that well, but he doesn't know what else to say and he can't wave his staff and magically fix his mood.
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