I miss you. [Colin sounds faint and far away.] I really, really miss you. I wish I'd told you how much you changed my life. How you were like family. And that's, that's a lot, for me. Having family. Trusting someone, really trusting someone. I'm scared I won't find someone else like you. But I want you to know I'm going to be all right. I'll never forget the things you've told me. And I'm never going to stop missing you. Losing you hurts so much. And it's stupid, I keep thinking I could go find you to ask you how to cope with your death. I just, I want you back. I need you back. Who's going to get me through the rest of all this?

But I'm going to be all right. I won't hurt myself, I promise. But I will miss you forever. So rest. You really, you earned a good rest. We'll all be all right. We've got to be.