[ Sidony doesn't necessarily look upset by it - this is all she has ever known, after all. ]
Nevarra is in a state of very precarious political control. Every single family is doing what they can to gain more influence, more power, and to have a handsome enough daughter to wed to someone who might give your family the money they need to be more important? That is not something to throw away. There is no such thing as love when it comes to games like these, Anders.
[ Settling back in her chair, she frowns. ]
Whatever I might think the view my mother and father have will be much different. If I married for love I think I should be disowned, and while that might sound wonderful and novel it would mean being unable to return to anything I knew and loved. Nevarra would be closed off to me entirely. I am pushing the boundaries of their affection enough by coming here without their knowledge nor consent.
[ Her fingers twitch around her water, eyes closing and lips set. ]
If I dared to engage with a woman, to profess my love to someone who could not bed and breed me? It would be intolerable. The idea of it fills me with shame. I... [ A breath. ] I was not taught to accept such things. To allow it. I do not think I would be able to survive it without loathing myself after.
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[ Sidony doesn't necessarily look upset by it - this is all she has ever known, after all. ]
Nevarra is in a state of very precarious political control. Every single family is doing what they can to gain more influence, more power, and to have a handsome enough daughter to wed to someone who might give your family the money they need to be more important? That is not something to throw away. There is no such thing as love when it comes to games like these, Anders.
[ Settling back in her chair, she frowns. ]
Whatever I might think the view my mother and father have will be much different. If I married for love I think I should be disowned, and while that might sound wonderful and novel it would mean being unable to return to anything I knew and loved. Nevarra would be closed off to me entirely. I am pushing the boundaries of their affection enough by coming here without their knowledge nor consent.
[ Her fingers twitch around her water, eyes closing and lips set. ]
If I dared to engage with a woman, to profess my love to someone who could not bed and breed me? It would be intolerable. The idea of it fills me with shame. I... [ A breath. ] I was not taught to accept such things. To allow it. I do not think I would be able to survive it without loathing myself after.