And ruined he is. How could he ever go back to sex alone when he can have this? Nate adores him, and Anders can feel it in every touch. He can only hope he's doing the same back with his feather-light touches and kisses and words.

As Nate starts to harden inside him, a sensation that has him shivering, Anders smiles against Nate's temple. "I love you enough to trust you utterly," he whispers. For him, that's an even stronger revelation than him loving someone. Trust is hard, possibly the most difficult thing for him. But here he's safe. With Nate, he's safe.

"Do you have a plan now, love? Beyond turning me back on, that is."