[No. Everything is not all right. Nathaniel doesn't need to come up with a dozen good reasons not to pursue Anders, just one bad one and one good one.
The bad one is not wanting to wind up like his parents did in their miserable, toxic marriage.
The good one is Justice. Courting Anders would mean courting Justice. And there may yet come a day when Justice will have to be killed without Anders' knowledge or consent. A betrayal like that would be so much worse if they were...together.
Anders can't know how he feels. If he does, he'll feel beholden somehow, like he owes Nathaniel something he doesn't. Leave it, then. Leave it for that elusive day when there is no Justice and re-evaluate then. By then, he might have some idea what there is to even tell him.]
I'm not sure, [he says honestly.] I have never been with anyone if I knew I was going to see them again. I'm not sure what happens now.
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The bad one is not wanting to wind up like his parents did in their miserable, toxic marriage.
The good one is Justice. Courting Anders would mean courting Justice. And there may yet come a day when Justice will have to be killed without Anders' knowledge or consent. A betrayal like that would be so much worse if they were...together.
Anders can't know how he feels. If he does, he'll feel beholden somehow, like he owes Nathaniel something he doesn't. Leave it, then. Leave it for that elusive day when there is no Justice and re-evaluate then. By then, he might have some idea what there is to even tell him.]
I'm not sure, [he says honestly.] I have never been with anyone if I knew I was going to see them again. I'm not sure what happens now.